well its been a long time since I posted in my blog been thinking about starting up again.... Life is pretty much the same as where I left off.
Sober 3 years 10 months... excited to hit that four year mark!!! I still find it to be a struggle some days although they are few of those days now... finally!!! Stress brings on the wanting and entertaining the idea brings on the struggle but I am learning.
I am thinking about revisiting the 12 steps again... Taking a little time to review my previous writings, thoughts & feelings. The goal? To dig deeper and pluck out some of those roots!
Many many years ago God placed Nehemiah and Jeremiah on my heart. I was in the Bible book store and a study guide nearly jumped off the shelf into my hands. I contemplated buying or not buying but the overwhelming feeling that it was the "right" book won and I took it home. I have a lot of notes I made as I read it but after awhile of not quite understanding it's purpose.... The words I took away from it were determination & rebuilding. But I didn't find alot of real understanding in its pages so I put it away. Throughout the years God has brought back these 2 amazing men of the Bible. Recently I purchased a book titled Rebuilding the real you by Jack Hartford....who do you think it's about? If you said Nehemiah & Jeremiah you would be right!! So now I understand the purpose from all those years ago.... personal restoration.... rebuilding walls and how those walls and gates of the city relate to our spirit and soul.... Breaking away from condemnation....facing tomorrow and all the days to come with joy.... Rebuilding to last... and doing it all while maintaining sobriety.
Thinking that I will study the 12 steps in the aspect of the books of Nehemiah and Jeremiah. Should be a blog worthy quest!!!!!!
